Saturday, July 09, 2005

赤子之心。笑看风云。

Realized that I getting more irritated by people these days. Things like racist remarks, discriminatory or naïve thoughts really get on my nerves. Think my tolerance level for things is getting lower. Am I getting more and more jaded with life or is this a sign of aging?

为何我不能相以前一样笑看风云?难道因为我开始在凡尘中打滚,应持我却失去了我的赤子之心?开始对 “得” 与 “失”, “对”与 “错”,“实”与 “非” 这些观念太过执著了。Must start to remind oneself that people are entitled to be wrong because they choose to be wrong. Nonsense has no difference from background noises. Trying to educate them verbally is usually fruitless as it long ingrained in their character. The best way is to let them realize their own mistake, even if it’s a painful mistake. 良药苦口嘛。

But when will I die? Can I just sleep and don't wake up? I’m finding it more difficult to make my immediate life more interesting. Existing friends are either getting married, going off to far away places and worse, becoming more and more lazy and distanced. I know this will happen some day, and is a part of life. But what the heck, I still don’t like it anymore than then.

No easy solutions in sight at the moment. Think should start getting new friends, to add on to what I have now. I need to find something or someone more energetic and interesting to do and hang around with. Otherwise I will get sick of life and fall into my quarter-life crisis again. (The last outbreak was at my 22nd year)

Hope when I become a remisier, it will bring in more dynamics into my relationships. But on the short term, think I should get a new hobby. Been thinking of getting into Aikido.

Aikido (合气道) was founded by an japanese old man in 1883 basing on Jujitsu and some other Budos. Besides touted as a defensive martial arts with little or no attack moves, it has ingrained the zen-like philosophy into its teaching. In most martial arts, attacking is said to be the best defense. However a manga that I was reading brought to my attention that defensive martial arts are actually a higher martial art form.

The main gist is to maintain 100% defense initially while waiting for your opponent to attack. Since there is no perfect motion in attacking, one can efficiently examine the attacker’s weak points and attack correspondingly and ruthlessly, thereby achieving 100% success in bring down the enemy. Once one started using force to protect yourself, you cannot hold back your ruthlessness. A half-hearted defence / attack will only bring you problem later as your opponent, in starting the fight, is already in the state of mind to strike you down, hence he is unlikely to feel grateful for you to let him off and will attempt to take you down if he has a second chance / opening.

Of course using force to settle anything is the worst way of settling things in both martial arts and in life. The better way to do anything is to win without violence (both physical and verbal) or to fight. However the true sage will not even put himself in a position of wining and losing and will achieve what he needs to effortlessly, perhaps not even saying a single word ("无为 "). Winning and losing are just products of your distorted reality, akin to a coin toss. If winning and losing are just both sides of the coin, no matter which face is up, the coin is still a coin.

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