Nothing and I
I woke up today.
Guess there is no point wishing for the same thing every year and yet be disappointed by waking up.
Why can’t I just sleep and dun wake up today? Now I have another 365 days of life to wrestle with and occupy myself. Have to live out what i have now till then.
Hopefully my existence will come to a null soon. Kind of jaded with life liao. Given a choice, i will choose not to exist at all. But then life’s a big joke and so here I am for the roller coaster ride.
As an atheist, there is no hell and heaven. I’m looking forward to eternal non-existence where there is no thinking, nothing to do, no I. Even if i allow for the possible of an afterlife, my eventual ending will still be the end of my existence then, leaving no atoms, electrons, quarks around at all. Life and Death are both one and the same. Like 2 states in equilibrium, continuously in a flux. Its a coin that i can do without.
I’m ready to drop everything… well… more or less. My only worry left is my family, dunno how their life will turn out to the end, but I guess things will run their own course regardless of my interventions.
Well. Till next year. Again.
The anticipation to the end of I, of no where, of nothing.
Guess there is no point wishing for the same thing every year and yet be disappointed by waking up.
Why can’t I just sleep and dun wake up today? Now I have another 365 days of life to wrestle with and occupy myself. Have to live out what i have now till then.
Hopefully my existence will come to a null soon. Kind of jaded with life liao. Given a choice, i will choose not to exist at all. But then life’s a big joke and so here I am for the roller coaster ride.
As an atheist, there is no hell and heaven. I’m looking forward to eternal non-existence where there is no thinking, nothing to do, no I. Even if i allow for the possible of an afterlife, my eventual ending will still be the end of my existence then, leaving no atoms, electrons, quarks around at all. Life and Death are both one and the same. Like 2 states in equilibrium, continuously in a flux. Its a coin that i can do without.
I’m ready to drop everything… well… more or less. My only worry left is my family, dunno how their life will turn out to the end, but I guess things will run their own course regardless of my interventions.
Well. Till next year. Again.
The anticipation to the end of I, of no where, of nothing.
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posted by 逍遥老头 at 12:08 PM
2 Comments:
... happy, erm, belated bday =P
No worries. Its the thought that counts. 1,2,3,4,5.....
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